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Quit drinking for good!!!!
Written at Sunday, May 2, 2010 | back to top

i had been drinking since ever BT had broken with me. And also it had been a habit for me.After i work in Tye soon, i start to drink with Ritchie and sometimes become like a rountine after work. Last time i feel boring going home, i will ask Ritchie to go for drinking and all these 2 years my weight keep increasing and does not drop at all.

After i contact with Sherin, i realise what wrong with me? Why now i am a drunkard? Maybe she is just my big alarm clock . Wake me up from drinking dreamland. She even scold me i drink for what. Worry about my fat, and yet i still drinking. I Should go and die. BT and me had broken up so many years, Sorrow should be over. I should stop drink then. What she said is really very true. And i had thinking about it for quite some times.

I always feel i am fat and feel no confidence in myself.The first question i ask myself.When did i grew Fat?

Ans: I grew Fat since ever i start drinking.

Second question i ask again. Why i drink so much? I always go drinking with who?
Ans: I drink with Ritchie because i don wan to go home early as it is very bored. Once i drink, i will tend to drink alot and cant control.
Beside Ritchie, i never go drinking with anyone else.

Third question, do i really like Ritchie accompany?
Haha. Starting is a Yes. As there is alot of good food to eat and free beer to drink.
But now i feel is very terrible to drink with him.

1) I felt that a girl drinking with a bunch of uncles in the coffeeshop look very ugly.

2) I mixed with ritchie and his friend (who is uncle also) make me look like china girl. Only hostess will accompany them drinking at coffeeshop.

3) When Ritchie drink too much, he will want to go second round (Which mean Nightclub) and he keep insist me to go with him. If i don go, he will keep calling me. I did stop him from going but i had failed.Most of the time i had to sneak out from the Nightclub..

4)When i drink at Boon Keng, I will have to take a long bus trip back home. Most of the time, i bearing with my bladder as drinking makes me go toilet very often.The feeling very Xingu.

If i don quit drinking now, when i will stop it? If guys c or know me about this, how they will think of me? How fat i want to go further?

This time round i really got the heart to quit drinking. Even many ppl don believe is ok, i will show them i can do. I don wan to The Carol who like to say say only, wont really do it.I promise myself I have to do what i say.IF not ppl will laugh at me and Sherin will scold me.

Now i only hope Ritchie don call me to drink anymore.I will feel angry whenever you ask me to drink as i had been explaining to you why i wan to quit drinking. when i angry i talk to you in harsh manner, hope you wont feel hard heart.And also last time you keep saying i fat, now i want to slim down then u say i am not fat at all. I am only big size.And now say drinking does not make me fat is just that i eating too much.Keep saying why you drink you never grow fat.Please lo..Everybody had different metabolism in our body and just then we are different..

Ritchie , You don't believe i can slim because of i quit drinking. I will show it to you one day.Just wait and see.I am sorry if i talk very harsh about in my blog, but it is something which is inside my heart and i want to say it out very long ago.
Haha.. After writing out,i really feel much better.

I will quit drinking. I promise. And i have confidence i can do it this time round.
Thanks to Sherin, Nisha, Hong wei , Rainie and King Wei for all the faith you all have in me and believe that i can quit drinking.I wont let you all down. JiaYou!!!!!!!!