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I promise i wont lie to you anymore!!!!
Written at Monday, May 21, 2012 | back to top

This is the first time i feel so heartbroken because me n my BB seem like over soon but i am blessed because my BB willing to give me one last chance. I will treasure this chance and I will not take it for granted. What really happens... The story begins.. 15 May 2012------- I lied to him i meet a girl for dinner and end up he discovered i lie to him. lying is my fault. all my fault.Because we both are too angry so we decided to break up. I was angry at the starting and trying to talk round myself to give up on the relationship. I know i don bear and i was sad. i know now i don feel heartache and tomorrow the pain will eventually act up . I was so scare when i wake up, i will feel the pain so i try to force myself not to sleep. But in the end the useless me fell asleep. But is just a sleeping waking zombie. I am sleeping but my mind is awaking. 16 May 2012-------- I wake up for work and in the bus as i listen to my music. My tears start to drop. This is expected. And i really don know how to heal my saddness and heartache. while typing my data, my tears keep dropping non stop but i still force myself to work.Heng i am a Temp staff, so no one talk to me and discovered that i am crying. After work, i cant see clearly, blur visions. I guess i had been crying too much plus looking at the computer with my watery eyes for the whole day. So i decided to go home and rest. Drink my white wine and get me to sleep. But end up i still wake in the middle of the night and start to cry again. Cry till i tired then i went back and sleep. I keep thinking, praying and hoping my BB will forgive me after he cool down.but i don dare hope much as he hate ppl lie to him.. And he say before even how much he love a person, even though he don bear to break, he will still let it go. 17 May 2012-------- i wake up with a upset stomach so i decide to take leave. Firstly is because i feel very tired and secondly i want to go down to the agency to sign my appointment lettter. Just then i remember tanjong pajar got bus 80 to my BB house . I agar agar he is working morning shift n i buy mask for him as i remember he want facial mask for very long time. I just want to dote him for one last time. I decide to went to his downstairs and wait for him. While waiting the feeling is very scare and sad. I scare he might not want to see me. Worry he will say nasty words to me which make me more heartbroke but is ok. i had mentally prepare for everything. I try to rush to reach there before 3 and heng i didnt see his bike. He might on his way. but i waited until 4.30pm but he still not home yet. Guess he might be working afternoon shift. i might guess wrong. Never mind. bring my disappointment home and i cry again . i cant remember i cried how long but i know is quite long . But two days later, he msg me and decided to give me another chance.. Thanks BB. I promise i wont lie to you anymore.